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HOWDY WORDPRESSERS,

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Carlos

No Guarantees (New Poem)

Here’s a poem that I wrote recently. My mind was heavy that day and this is what came out of my thoughts. Decided to share this one since I haven’t posted one in a while. Let me know what you think! 

 

No matter how hard

We try to hold on

There are no guarantees

Tomorrow you may awaken

And find yourself out of love with me

Today she may realize that

Beauty is fleeting

And that’s all that ever was

Next week he may realize

That sorry isn’t enough

When the opportunity to apologize

Is no longer an option

We move in robotic motion

Day in and day out

Depending on the clouds to

Shield the storms of life

And often times they do

But what happens when the

Rain cracks the sky

And the sun gives way to darkness

Will we survive?

I took for granted all the things

That appeared to be so stationary

That crutch of a wall

I heavily leaned on

And now the sheet rock is breaking

In a life filled with hollow guarantees

Who is still left standing

When trouble shakes our dreams?

Tongue Kiss of Life or Death

It is said that the tongue is the strongest muscle in the body. But the tongue is much stronger than just the physical sense. Sure, we use it to eat, speak and drink, but its effects are lasting. The words we say when using our tongue can cut deeply. How could a muscle that is so small in comparison to the rest of our body pack so much power? The answer is within us. Yes, it starts as a generational curse so to speak that is passed down through generations, until someone is stronger than the tongue and breaks the cycle. Some people grew up hearing nothing but “You’re stupid. You’re dumb. You’ll never be anything in life.” While some are able to roll these words off their backs like water, others are pierced and stung by these words that have a lasting effect. The question is, do we love ourselves (and the people around us) enough to recognize the evil in this and stop the cycle before it continues?

Then there’s the circle of people we surround ourselves with. You can tell a lot about a person by the company they keep. It’s no secret that positive people tend to attract positive people, just like negative people attract those that are negative. But what happens when you slip up and let someone in your world that plants seeds of doubt, fear and jealousy in your mind? Could they be just bringing out our natural character? Maybe so, but maybe not. Friends and associates are just like food. Whatever we feed ourselves will eventually manifest itself in an external and internal fashion. Are you full of trash or substance? Deep down we really know the answer, but will we fix it is the questions.

Ok, so you may be thinking, “What if I can’t change my surroundings?” That’s when you have to dig into yourself to turn that tongue kiss of death into one of life. I think we all can agree that we are often our own worst enemy. We speak defeat on ourselves sometimes before anyone else ever will. We become what we speak, without ever realizing it. A lot of people know that TLC is one of my favorite singing groups. A few years before Left Eye died, she made the statement in an interview, “Sometimes I just hope a car hits me or something and takes me out of this mess so it won’t all be my fault”. As we all know her tragic ending, she was killed in a tragic car accident 10 years ago. Could this have possibly been a self-fulfilling prophecy? Maybe you’re not making statements that are that drastic. But even telling ourselves things like, “I’ll never be good enough for this job” or “I’m always broke” has a way of haunting us.

So what will you choose? The tongue kiss of life or death? It’s not easy, but let’s all make a conscious effort to be careful of the things we say to others and even to ourselves. This does not mean we should walk around with our feelings on our shoulders, but it does mean that we have a greater awareness of the power of the tongue. Use the strength of that muscle to build up, instead of tear down.

Proverbs 18:21 Words kill, words give life; they’re either poison or fruit—you choose.

Fantasy: Turned On Or Turned Off?

By definition, the word fantasy means to imagine things that are impossible or improbable.  Deep down in our most intimate, private, maybe even nasty thoughts…what is that we fantasize about? Could it be something of a sexual nature? Whips, chains, hand cuffs, etc….. you fill in the blank to your own fantasy. What defines a turn on or turn off, depends on who controls the switch. If we are honest with ourselves, we have all had these kinds of thoughts before (even the prudish people who say they don’t, lol). And speaking of “impossible” or “improbable”, how much control do we have in making some of these fantasies a reality? Maybe much more than you could ever imagine…

Ok, so maybe you insist that you don’t have fantasies of the sexual or carnal origin (hmmmm…right). How about movies or images that portray unrealistic and beautiful galaxies that we could never live in? This is another form of fantasy that pleases our senses and makes us want more and more. Just think of how technology has become more and more realistic over the years. Although we can’t actually live the life of an Avatar or have super powers like the Avengers, we can get pretty close to it. Maybe that’s why they call it a fantasy….because we can get so close…but it’s still not reality.

Now that you’re all hot and bothered and floating in 3D space, let’s switch gears. Have you ever sat and fantasized about where you will be in life in the next 5 to 10 years? Do you fantasize about what your true calling and passion is over your life? The sad and harsh reality is many people would answer these questions with a resounding NO! It’s easy to articulate what we want in the bedroom, who did what to who on pointless reality shows, and how cool the last Summer blockbuster was, but how often can we articulate what we want out of life? It’s natural to fantasize about things that are pleasing to the flesh, but we should always remember to save some room for what matters most. Just like there’s a thin line between love and hate, there’s also a very thin line between reality and fantasy.

I too am guilty of not being totally aware of where I will be a few years from now. I know that I would eventually like to be responsible over my own income, whether that’s owning my own publishing company, continuing to write books or even owning a restaurant. In my opinion, there’s nothing like having your own. Life has a way of throwing a monkey wrench in our best laid plans. But, we do have the power to make fantasies come true. If Donald Trump, Janet Jackson, Steven Spielberg, and Oprah can all turn themselves on, why can’t we? Everything we fantasize about is not too far beyond our reach.

So tell me, what is your ultimate fantasy? Have you turned yourself on and given your purpose the green light? Don’t wait for others to do it for you….you owe it to yourself to be TURNED ON!

I Said I Never Would….

Fried crawfish and a baked potato. This is what I usually get when I go to my favorite restaurant, Pappadeaux. I almost get offended when they give me a menu, lol. “What do I need that for???” I think you all probably know by now that I love food. When I have a favorite thing in any facet of my life (including food), I can go overboard with it sometimes. Tradition and habits are sometimes good, but  if we keep doing the same things over and over again, are we really living? I’ve begun to think more about turning 30 soon. No I’m not rushing my life away, but I’m 27 now and it will be here before I know it. I just don’t want to look up one day years later and realize I always played it safe, didn’t take any risks and only stuck to the things I liked.

Here are a few things that I took a leap of faith on that have all turned out to be positive for me.

Not Your Average Frat Guy

I never really grew up feeling like I was fit to be a fraternity guy. A lot of the reasons I would hear why people joined just didn’t seem to apply to me. I never had a longing to be a part of an in-crowd (maybe cause I’m an only child) either. But during my freshman year in college, I kept noticing that many of the guys around me who were helpful and mentors just happened to be Alphas. I thought, hmmmm….there may be something more to this that I should look into. Almost 8 years later, I’m so honored to be a member of this brotherhood and organization.

My favorite line jacket I had made when I was in college...

Taste This…

I used to be one of those people who you couldn’t pay to eat sushi. My first time trying it was last June during a happy hour at work. Surprisingly, I loved it! For now I’m just sticking to the California and Shrimp Rolls (or anything cooked). I haven’t graduated to the raw sushi yet, lol. Baby steps…I accidentally ate Rainbow Sushi once with raw fish and it actually wasn’t bad. I think it’s just the thought of consciously eating raw fish that gets to me. Now you can’t keep me out of Ra Sushi, a restaurant in Plano, TX. I like it so much, it’s where I had my book signing event for my poetry book, Blurred Vision!

RA Sushi...one of my new favorite restaurants.

To Be Or Not To Be Bald?

My hair started thinning when I turned 25. As much as I wanted to deny it, I knew that I eventually had to do something. And Rogaine was not an option for me, lol. I contemplated going bald for over a year before I actually did it. But I was nervous about how I would look bald. But on August 14, 2010 I decided to go for it. I’ve been keeping the bald look ever since and other than having to shave every other day, I love it. I miss having hair sometimes, but not enough to keep it and let it be thin.

Back when I still had hair....

Me with no hair, about a year ago....

So what are you trying that’s new? Or are you just going through the motions doing the same ‘ole thing, day in and day out? What you said you would never do, just might be the best thing for you.